Posted by: morrowsl | September 27, 2013

Letting go that which is no longer essential

Today is about letting go.

My friend, Judi, advises to “hold loosely” but I find that, all too often for me at least, that doesn’t work so well.  I tend to gnaw on things internally until they’re shredded.  Sometimes I can work my way through to some understanding or acceptance and move on.  More often than not, the elapsed time reshapes things and I find myself gnawing away again.
So, better to just let go and move forward.

Today is also about apologizing.  Or at least attempting to.

I find myself in the uncomfortable position of apologizing to someone I suspect doesn’t want to hear what I have to say.  I’ve screwed up the courage to admit I was wrong and am willing to say as much.  I’m just not sure I’m going to be given the chance to say what needs saying.  All I can do is try.

And lastly, today is about forgiveness.

I need to offer forgiveness for something that caused a rift that may never heal.  No apologies were ever offered.  Nothing was done to try to clear the air or invite understanding.  Everything was left open and raw and exposed.  And doors were slammed closed in anger and frustration.

So, I am opening the doors.  I am offering apologies for my part.  I am letting go of that which is no longer essential.

Hopefully, I will not have to do this alone.


Responses

  1. You are a good woman to apologize for that which should need no apology (IMHO)!!! I wish there was a way to open the eyes of others to how good they have it! Here’s to resolution…and I’m hoping it comes sooner rather than later!

    • My concern is that I’ll be the only person who really cares about the outcome. And since I can control only my part in it, I just have to make my peace and move on.


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